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orange sky dreams.

Well I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky
Yes I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother standing by
With my brother standing by I said brother, you know you know
It’s a long road we’ve been walking on
Yes it is, yes it is, you know
Brother it is,
Such a long road we’ve been walking on
Oh brother, oh brother
And I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky
With my sister standing by
With my sister standing by
Said here is what I know now sister
Here is what I know now
Goes like this…
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love

Oh but you know I am so weary
And you know my heart,
My hearts been broken now
Sometimes, sometimes
My mind is too strong to carry on
Too strong, too strong to carry on
But when I’m alone
When I’ve thrown off the weight of this crazy stone
When I’ve lost all care for the things I own
That’s when I miss you, that’s when I miss you
You are my home You are my home now
Here is what I know now brother
Here is what I know now sister
Goes like this…
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, my salvation lies
In your love, in your love, in your love
Well I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky
With my brother and my sister standing by
With my brother and my sister standing by now
With my brother and my sister standing.

 

[Alexi Murdoch - Orange Sky]

botswanamerica

Reasons I love Botswana:

  • sunshine (& beautiful sunsets)
  • my school
  • opportunities to travel!
  • my laid-back lifestyle
  • my friends here
  • the rugby club (watching molibi play on sunny saturdays & playing for the lady hogs!)
  • driving over fly-overs and seeing the city of gabs below
  • fun foods that you don’t normally see in america (ie. lichi, chakalaka, boerwors)
  • my crazy/strange cats kabo & kagiso
  • showing up at one of the few places to hang out & knowing people & owners.. etc..
  • my amazing two story, two bedroom, two bathroom, great kitchen flat! with a community pool!
  • visiting villages and feeling like you are in a different world.
  • molibi’s farm and being in the middle of nowhere.. feeling peaceful.
  • buying mangos and avocados from street venders
  • having south africa so close. it’s a great place to vacation!
  • it’s molibi’s home-country and he has so much going for him here.
  • only three months of winter!!!
Reasons I love America:
  • My family, friends & all of the people that I love & miss
  • coffee shops & dirty-soy-chai lattes.
  • more things to do! fairs! concerts! outside events!
  • mexican food
  • easy access to anything i would want to buy
  • cheaper phone/internet/tv bills (seriously!)
  • BETTER INTERNET
  • TACO BELL
  • having a car!!!
  • no fences and guards to protect houses
  • green grass, parks, rivers, lakes…
  • 24 hour shops
  • more people being active outside
  • sporting events! going to michigan football games.. baseball games.. being able to watch american sports on tv.
  • walking around down-town areas of towns
  • ebay, amazon and all of the other wonderful websites that americans can order from!
Hence why I want to have my cake and eat it too.
I just want to live in BOTSWANAMERICA!
Pardon me, if when I want 
to tell the story of my life
it’s the land I talk about.
This is the land 
It grows in your blood
and you grow.
if it dies in your bloood 
you die out.
- Pablo Neruda

choices.

if i can’t do
what i want to do
then my job is to not
do what i don’t want
to do

it’s not the same thing
but it’s the best i can
do

if i can’t have
what i want then
my job is to want
what i’ve got
and be satisfied
that at least there
is something more
to want

since i can’t go
where i need
to go then i must go
where the signs point
though always understanding
parallel movement
isn’t lateral

when i can’t express
what i really feel
i practice feeling
what i can express
and none of it is equal
i know
but that’s why mankind
alone among the animals
learns to cry
—Nikki Giovanni

 

breathing.

INHALE. EXHALE.

It’s Saturday!
My reports are DONE!
4 Days of school left!
My Mom is coming in 26 days, 8 hours, 51 minutes & 59 seconds!
I have a few rugby games today! (I play 7s, so the games are short so you play a few in one day)
I’m drinking coffee!
I FEEL GOOD.

What a weight is lifted from my shoulders. I’m ready to be free & crazy over these holidays. I have a few weeks before my mom comes which I might spend either:
a) going to an art festival in Zimbabwe
b) going to Mozambique
c) visiting Jo’burg
d) staying home, in my pool, & saving money

When my Mom get’s here I’m taking her to the Okavango Delta. One of the most beautiful places I’ve ever seen in the whole world..

I have to go get my rugby things together (our kit today is.. BLACK & YELLOW BLACK & YELLOW!)
Today is beautiful, life is beauitful. It feels good to be breathing again.
I think I’ll go tackle someone…

stable ground.

With  reports, the end of the term &  winter just around the corner I have decided to make myself a to-do list of things to keep me sane:

1. Spend more time outside, less time cooped up in my classroom/house. Sunshine can (sometimes) cure all.

2. Run. Play rugby. Swim. Pretty much just be active and take my stress out on the pavement/field/water.

3. Listen to good music. Positive music. I’ve made a “Happy Mix” for my staff to help all of us!

4. Take time-outs. Drinking & eating burgers at the rugby club.. coffee dates with positive people.. dinner/movie dates with Molibi.

5. Not to complain! There is so much negativity around me right now & I just really don’t want to be a part of it. Complaining doesn’t get anyone anywhere… the more I complain the worse I feel and the bigger the problem gets. I don’t want to participate. I need to remember to stop people from complaining around me and point out positive things that are happening. This can be hard.. but it needs to happen.

the little things.

Hello world.

Phew, so much has been happening.

I’ve been working super hard lately. Our school is going through many changes. Good changes. It can be a bit overwhelming though. I never seem to get caught up.. I moved into a new classroom this year and I really love it. It has a really nice air conditionaing unit (so key!) & it’s fully carpeted which is great for the kids! I’ve been really, really trying to stay super organized and on top of things – but it feels like the harder you work, the more there is! Ah well.. I still love my job, love my kids, love my coworkers, love my school so – I can’t complain too much! I feel lucky that I can wake up every day & know that I’m going to a job that I care about, believe in & am happy to do! I just wish school started at… oh… 10? ;)
I’ve been little-miss-volunteer at school as well. I’m always raising my hand for something! I’m head of the social committee, a coach, organizer for an internet safety night for parents,  head of international week… to name a few!

I’ve been regularly attending rugby practice! It’s turned into a pretty big committment but I enjoy the team-aspect. I really like ‘belonging’ to something. We have our first tournament this weekend, on Saturday. We’re going to play (we hope) 4 games (it’s a little organized over here in these parts..). This will only be our second time playing together! Last season (because we were just starting) we only played one tournament and let me tell you… that was the worst torture I have EVER put my body though… oh. my. gosh. After I played I was feeling great.. had a few beers with my team.. was hanging out at the rugby club.. and then BAM. My whole body was on FIRE and I couldn’t move for DAYS after that! I just laid in the tub and took pain killers! It’s no joke! There is nothing to compare to getting thrown on the ground like, 100 times in one afternoon! I’m hoping that as I get stronger & my body get’s use to it that it won’t be so bad!
It’s really beautiful at our rugby field… the sun sets just behind these big/rocky hills & it’s out of town & by the dam so it is just… peaceful. I always feel better after going to practice.

I’ve been doing a lot of reading lately. I finished “The Book of Negros” by Lawrence Hill & “The Help” by Kathryn Stockett. Both really great books! I had book club last night and I picked up a whole stack more. I grabbed a few southern african books – there really is SO much to learn about this part of the world.

[MOANING TIME] I’ve been super homesick lately. I don’t know if it’s just a case of ‘the grass is greener’ or what? I have such a great life here though.. perfect job, great friends, supportive rugby team, ADVENTURE, SUNSHINE… but I’m just… tired. Tired of missing Alandon’s birthdays. Tired of missing my sister’s graduations. Tired of not being there for my Mom or for Alexa. Tired of skype not working. Tired of not going to coffee shops with Liz. Tired of not having beers with my friends. Tired of no mexican food. Tired of being so. far.
Molibi and I have been talking a lot. I’m really waiting for his go-ahead. I totally understand why we are waiting.. he’s been working SUPER hard on his new company, BlueRedSand, & it’s AWESOME and I’m super proud of him!
Time will tell.

The weather is getting colder here.. it’s been really beautiful though. That’s one of the great things about Botswana. No matter how cold it gets, the sun is still shining and filling the air.

Well. I’ve got my computer propped up on a few hours of school work as I sit here blogging.. I should probably get back to it.

Until then…

 

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For my part, I travel not to go anywhere, but to go.

I travel for travel’s sake.

The great affair is to move.
~ Robert Louis Stevenson

being awake right now defies everything jet lag should be doing to me. i have just drank a glass of wine, took a sleeping pill & rearranged my box-filled room. so, the logical thing to do next would be to.. blog!

my flight home was exhausting, to say the least.
i worked on thursday morning & then my principal took over & let me off early for the day so i could go home and pack. i flew home and frantically threw things in a bag, wrapped my sister’s wedding statue (thankfully she doesn’t even read my dang blog so she won’t see this) & was all ready and waiting for my hero molibi to pick me up when…
a) the cat starts limping across the floor. falls down. and won’t get back up again. (i currently owe the vet 600 pula & have been avoiding him)
b) i remember that my ipod has been missing & i still don’t have it now.

solution:
a) molibi, the hero, will take the cat in later. thank goodness.
b) leave with out it (bad idea. worse idea because of airplane situation –> that’s foreshadow right there folks)

so, i get chauffeured to the airport  and get on my plane no problemo.
when i get on the plane i flag a stewardess and explain to her my worry about the lack of time between the landing of this flight & the taking off of my next. she looked at me very annoyed and matter-of-factly (aka: snotty) tells me ‘you won’t make it.’ and moved on to the next row. little did she know..
long story short, i flew threw the airport, sweating like a crazy person and landed myself a seat on that plane.

we then proceeded to wait for an hour and a half.  (ie: ‘delay’)

when we get in the air the pilot reassures us that he will do his best to arrive on time in washington dc. i secretly sent him the message of ‘pedal to the medal mister’.
we get served dinner at about  9pm (ask me if i’ve eaten that day… answer: nope!) and i’m STARVING. i eat. take a sleeping pill. and run to the bathroom & throw EVERYTHING up. awesome. nothing like feeling like death on a plane. nothing like puking your guts out and then smashing yourself into a cramped seat next to a south african man (seriously) named ‘sunny boy’. oh, and might i mention… on this particular 747 jet, in this particular last section of the plane, in the particular section that i just-so-happened to be sitting in… wire problem with the tv’s.
no. tv. for. 18. hours.
oh, and this is where the no ipod issue should be inserted as well. omg.
luckily i had just borrowed  The Book of Negros & i proceeded to read 1/2 of it on that one flight (it’s a pretty biggish book..) . it’s really, really, really, really, really good! i’m looking forward to continuing it!

so, anyways, i get to washington dc and when i see land and paste my face against the window i start cry and it hits me that… i’m home. i’m home.

we rock up to the terminal and the pilot assures us that even though we are still AN HOUR AND A HALF LATE that south african airways will assist us in sorting out any missed flights. they forgot to mention that south african airways does not have an office IN the airport. good one.
i start freaking out (no sleep, no food, ready to go home kind of freaking out) and shove my way through security, check and re-check my bags (my statue was looking a-ok!) and SPRINT to the OTHER SIDE OF THE AIRPORT. if you’ve ever been in this airport before i hope you have now gained a whole new respect for me. i was sprinting up stairs with my suitcase, running through hall ways and dodging people left and right.
i made it to the terminal with seconds to spare and mister stone heart stares as me as i say ‘i’m here! i’m here! i made it! i’m going home!!!’
nope.
my flight has left. 26 hours of flying and i’m SOL. (heh)

he let’s me know that i can just hop on the plane at 12:45 (this is 4 hours & 45 minutes later then the current time)
i throw a mini-fit.
doesn’t help.

so, i figure. welp, i’m in america gosh darn it. GET THIS GIRL A BEER!
so i rock up to the bar at 8:30 in the morning and order & pound a miller light. i try to convince the lady to bring me some dang nachos but she keeps telling me it’s breakfast (not in MY internal current clock settings!). so i go next door to the taco place and order. i hug the lady when she hands me my food and tell her how greatful i am for these nachos and that they are the first authentic nachos i’ve had in over a year.

i get online and chat to my friends, get nachos all over my key board and take a pepto.
not as bad as i thought it would be…

then, it’s boarding time! i fly home with a guy chatting my ear off the entire way (annoying) and land, sprint and run into the arms of my family. (alandon is blowing the vuvuzela i got him last year loud enough for the entire airport to hear – which i loved.)

now, i have since had 2 LONG showers, a visit to liz, joel, wes & gwen’s house (yayayayayayayayayayay!), seen some beautiful friends, made breakfast & drank coffee with my mom in the morning, gone to a hockey game, ate pizza & played cards for hours on end with the relatives.

i feel so lucky to be home. it feels exactly the same to me. i feel calm. i feel like i fit. i feel like this is exactly where i want to be right now. i feel overwhelmed by how much stuff is all around me. i feel anxious for molibi to come. i feel different. i feel the same. i feel like i should probably let this sleeping pill kick in and should blog much more tomorrow.

go siame you few blog readers of mine!
it’s good to be home!

birfday number twenty-six.

Before I get the Bacardi and ’50 Cent’ album out I figured I should reflect upon and be thankful for the amazing week I’ve had:

I woke up to a beautiful molibi’s-love-infused-breakfast! & also a wonderful bottle of my favorite perfume! WIN! At school I was spoiled rotten! More wine, chocolate, coffee, earrings and flowers then I know what to do with! I feel really lucky and loved. After school I went out to lunch with some of my fav. co-workers & they MADE me eat the most delicious lemon marane pie. after, kerryn took me to get a pedicure. I decided to go with gold sparkles.. every twenty-six-year-old needs gold toes i think?
That night I went out to dinner with molibi. He took me to Caravella which is a romantic Portuguese restaurant tucked away in the city. They have white Christmas lights, red/white checkerboard table cloths, latin music, legit seafood & good wine. It was really special.

Friday night was my PAR-TAY! I decided to go with a 1984 theme.  Inspired by Madonna Molibi was a Ghost-buster! He even had a pack on his back & the Ghost-buster logo on his shirt. Awesome. Reason #23o49320 why I love him.
The night was crazy. We were at the rugby club from 6pm to 3am! So many people came out, it was really wonderful! Molibi set up his famous beirut table. He & I are called the ‘Sunshine Killaz’ and although we didn’t kick as much butt as usual, we still remain probably the best beirut team ever. Molibi also made ‘The top 100 songs from 1984 mix’. Gosh, I love 80′s music.. I was dancing all night! All in all, a great way to start 26!

 

old bold gold

28 days until i’m home!

i’m so excited i can hardly stand it! although, i haven’t even started christmas shopping. i think i’ll just bring everyone a bottle of south african wine and a baby elephant. who wouldn’t love that?
also, my baby sister is getting married! i can’t believe it.. aren’t we still kids? shouldn’t we still be reporting to the dinner table every night? i’ve always been a child at heart but i really, really don’t feel like we’re old enough for everything we’re doing now! and by old enough let’s just take a second to have a quick heart attack at the fact that i’m turning TWENTY SIX in SIX days. ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh. only old people are 26! the women at my work are giving me flak for it but i really am having a hard time believing that i’m going to be this old!! ahhh! i checked my hair for grays this morning but THANK THE LORD i didn’t find any. haha, i know all this is silly. sorry.

so, the end of the year is fast approaching. my to-list is growing and growing and growing and growing.. i have so much to do. but, it will keep me busy until i board that flight home! i also will be moving classrooms which is pretty exciting for me! i’m only moving next door, into the now music room. but, it’s fully carpeted and has cool windows and, i’m just excited for a bit of a change!

my softball girls kicked some serious butt today! i played both an A & B team and they did so well! i had a blast! and, we won both games! not that winning is the most important thing.. having fun, knowing what you are doing and being confident are. that’s my sports mission statement!

well. i really don’t know what else to update on. i’m going to grab a beer & do the dishes!
until then.. go siame!

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